Title: Blue Dream
Published: 2nd December 2015
Publisher: Entertwine Publishing
Author: Xavier Neal
First love. Last love. Only love. Well, at least that’s how Ryder Collins thinks of the girl he lost because of his addiction ten years ago. While Ryder is battling the demons of his past to save his future, he will start to question the nightmare that has become his reality and the illusive blue dream that he swears started it all.
OMG OMG OMG I absolutely loved this book! Right from the first chapter I was hooked and knew that if I didn’t have to get up early for work the next day I would have read all night – as it was I read till midnight anyway. Slightly panicking now though as have to wait till February for the next part. I’m not sure I can wait that long! So if you don’t like waiting between books then I would hold off until you can read both back to back.
A very cleverly laid out story of two halves told from both Presley and Ryder’s perspectives. They show what they are doing in present day and how both their lives have turned out. Then take us back to the past to where everything began and how because of one moment the path they were on changed forever. A trip down memory lane if you will, however not all memories remembered are good ones. Such a gritty, heart wrenching story that draws you in and refuses to let you go – not that I wanted it to.
The relationship that Ryder and Presley had as teens was electric and you can see why they would be addicted to each other. Both were very easily led in how they thought they should act in the ‘school environment’ though which ultimately caused problems. No matter what obstacles were in their way they were always going to be drawn together. Ryder doesn’t realise until now he’s getting help though that when you are constantly chasing the next high you start losing yourself within.
Ryder is back in rehab and Doc, his shrink, is trying to help him through the last part of his programme before he can (or if he can) be released. He is getting him to think back to what the catalyst for his downward spiral of substance abuse was. To find the point where everything started to go wrong for him and by extension his relationship with Presley. He is the first person that Ryder feels actually wants to know and so it helps him begin to tell his story for the first time. Admitting things to Doc, and at times to himself, for the first time. He breaks it down for Doc, telling him about his first high, something so sweet that nothing could compare. She’s that one high he will never truly give up – no matter what. His first high was Presley, his very own Blue Dream and he destroyed her.
Presley has never really dealt with her past relationship with Ryder. It’s not until her best friend asks for her help with her new book that she has a chance to look back and see it all in a different light. Her friend is using her past relationship as a base for what women find themselves doing for love. It’s only after reliving the past that she truly sees how much it affected her then and still affects her now. She questions her current relationship because of it and wonders whether she will always hold out for the love that said he would always be there for her. Someone who said they would find their way back to her, and them, no matter what. How far would you go to save the one you love before you realise they have to want to save themselves first or your both be lost.
Love the ending so much as it gives you a great starting off point for what’s to come next. Presley has some decisions to make and from the sneak peak preview at the end of the book it looks like her past might soon meet her present. Love the authors’ style of writing and how she draws you in effortlessly into the story. Can’t wait for the next one!
5 out of 5 stars
I received this ARC from the author for my honest review.